LateIy, I find myself longing. As a mom I am happy to simply pee alone, let alone have any time alone. I have nothing to complain about, I have healthy kids, a fantastic husband, and a roof over my head. Yet, I still get stuck. Stuck in a cloudiness that consumes me. I seem to feel unfulfilled and empty. Regardless of what I try to fill it with.. My kids don't fill the void, nor my husband, money, success, food, friends, family, new clothes, the tv. It's like the cheesy saying goes, there is a God shaped hole in my heart. Well, my soul longs for the One who can fill me. When I remember that He is the One and Only who can complete me, things start to make sense.
Have you ever missed someone so much it hurts? Whether they be dead or living on earth? I have felt both this week. My grandfather is getting ready to sell his home. The place that he built for my grandmother. Cancer took her 9 years ago. It still seems like yesterday. I can remember her laugh and the way her hands look. I longed for her at her old home Sunday when we went for dinner. She is truely missed, still. I am comforted that she believed Jesus was her savior and has an amazingly grand home in heaven now! BUT, I still miss her.
I also am missin my new baby nephew Benaiah Thomas! Oh my heart longs to hold and see him! My brother and his wife live in Kansas so we are working on a visit. But until then, I am anxiously anticipating kissing his sweet cheeks!
The longing for my heavenly Father is daily, even hourly. If only I would recognize that in the moment when I feel empty. My emptiness is indeed longing for my Savior. Seek Him, He is there. He never leaves.
Oh Kim Walker's voice gets me every time. Check it:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kR6y4DtmmSQ&feature=youtube_gdata_player
And here in the new little bundle!!
