Sunday, October 21, 2012

Flesh Fails Me

I was sick last week. Yes, the pukey kind. Which is the worst kind. That's what I get for holding and snuggling the girls right after they barf. I can't help it. But every time I am sick there is this one particular friend who always comes through for me. She does happen to live within 5 minutes of me, which helps, but she ALWAYS brings me soup, sprite, whatever. I have faith that she will come through for me . I have many friends that I know I can trust and put faith into for many things in my life.

Yet, recently I have discovered that my instincts and heart can fail me. People fail me. I found that I too often trust people. I get close and then get disappointed, even badly hurt. This can happen with friends, family, and even my spouse.

I have recently taken a little too much interest in the political battle. One fight in particular pulls at my heart strings. Those of you who know my love for babies, can guess what issue. But both sides of this election disappoint, and lead us in the wrong direction. Neither are an answer to prayer for our nations gigantic problems, in my opinion. So I'm trying not to put a bunch of faith into a president. Whomever he may be.

And also a recent story in the news. Jessica Ridgeway. How sad. How so so sad. Humankind failed her, breaks my heart. How can this happen! How can a human being do such a thing?? Making it impossible for any parent to have any comfort and peace.

A friend of mine has a stepson who is rebelling, bad. Wreaking havoc on his home full of little ones and parents who love him. He doesn't even know the things that he is doing.

Intentionally or not, people hurt people. People disappoint me. My family will, my friends, and even my dashingly handsome almost perfect husband.

Bottom line we are all human. We all have faults, we will all disappoint. We all fall short.

I don't know about you, but everything around me in this world is terrifying. The things people are capable of are shocking. But I have to love people, but put my faith in God, or my heart will be broken every time! Last night I felt as though I was carrying the weight of so many people's problems. Then I read this:

Jeremiah 17:5-10
This is what the Lord says:
"Cursed is the one who trusts in man,
who draws strength from mere flesh
and whose heart turns away from the Lord. That person will be like a bush in the wastelands; they will not see prosperity when it comes. They will dwell in the parched places of the desert, in a salt land where no one lives. "But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit. The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind, to reward each person according to their conduct, according to what their deeds deserve."